False move

While I was asleep last night, I think I scratch myself quite hard, I can feel my left hand in pain. I think I really use quite much of force. I can not hold heavy things for the whole day, even making a fist is hard for me. Felt my hand is shaky on itself.

Today, I had a lot on my mind after listening from my mom.
And I have realised I did something that is not wisely done.

I think I am really impatient and silly. Telling my grandma about my boyfriend and my dad is not a good move. From what I understand from my mom, my grandma and one of my relatives will make the situation become more tense if they talk with my dad.

I better approach my grandma before she talks with my dad.
When you apply more force, the situation will be unstable.

I really don't know they will worsen the situation.

For once I can truly understand what they meant by everyone thinks and understand things differently. Ten people can understand one facts with ten different ways.

I don't know how to write here.. Is something like, everyone is supporting us and turning my dad down makes him felt little in heart.

She also says my grandma and my relative are those people that like to gossip without considering the person's feeling.
I should not be that greedy.

I should not have asking for more from my dad. For all these years, I really wanted to receive recognition from him on our relationship. Things are different when you have a dad that is really traditional in mind.

He cant't even accept to buy online movie ticket with his credit card.

Receiving no question from him is a good sign every time I wanted to go out. This is what my mom said, she say is better than receiving a no as an answer.

I should be grateful already.

Let's stick around a little more together. After graduation the situation will be better for us. 

For our future,
Leng



All I can say is, I met a right person at the right time,
With the right feeling for each other,

Only a slightly little more boundary from my dad.
#Keep Holding On.

No matter how,
I still love you, dad.