Here comes the once a month

I realised my posts are very regular. HAHA. Once a month. So, this is the ending of June, week 9 of my college semester. Nothing special has happen as how much I can flash back from previous. Is like, this few months ended in the blink of eyes.

Really, weird. What I do everyday is only sleep and sleep and SLEEP all over again. I do not understand how I did that, I am too tired struggle in college? Assignment? Tests? Sometimes even friendship is also one of the factors of exhausted. The only thing that can still can maintain my mental health is my husband :P.

I am in the middle of doing assignment and now i am typing on my blog. What nonsense right? I discover a new friendship. Although I do not really like her all the time but i am still sticking around with her.

That was what i typed last week i could not continue to finish that post because that time quite lots of people i know was around. I want to make my blog be secret~ Only certain people like you guys know about it. Keke~ <3
Know the reason i wanna kept this in secret? Cause I can type my gossips and complaint at here without caught by them. *Evil* True. I must learn to be good in managing my impression in front of some people, what not to show, what can be show.


Gossip renew
Nowadays the gossips are surrounding only that ONE. The one that i dislike at the beginning then, opinion changed to not bad then until recently turn into VERY BAD. Not very bad but just BAD. At the beginning, I do not really like the attitude of her, or i mean all the new members of friends that i discovered during the first semester of college. I GOT IGNORED QUITE FREQUENTLY BY THEM. Now, this thing does not matter already cause I already learnt to treat them back with the way they treat me *HOHO* But, i can not stand myself for doing that so frequent. SO. You know the result, I failed half succeed half.

Girls friendship can gain and loss very easily, unlike guys. Back to the ONE, when you are useful to them, you are friends, but when you are having some problems you know what will happen. After all, I can not put the blame on her cause they have the ability to make the choice. I do not know how I deal with that so easily when that incident happen and I am the one that advising others do not mind about her choice. And, now i am the one that still very concern about her, as in treating her differently i mean in not really friendly like old days. I do not treat the person good when I am very clear that HE/SHE will not help me when i am facing difficulties.

Story : The story is like this, Peg as the leader of this semester, borrowed a book for assignment purpose and she had lost the book. We attempted to find back the book, but failed, already asked around like people and school departments even cleaners. Then, fine, we took the book as already lost and can not be found. Here comes the thing, that book, was not used by some of the members (including her) and some like me only flipped through for once. Peg approached library to ask about the penalty and was informed the penalty will be charge DOUBLE which is about RM 150. Then, the boy friend of Peg, helped with RM50 and we as group members (excluding her) offered our help. After that,  we discussed how much we should contribute each of us and HAHA she say : " Huh? Why me? I did not even touched the book." This is so touching right? My another friend Ann, also did not touched the book and she also willing to pay for it. For me is like a responsibility of a group member as we also wrong for did not look after that book properly.

Morale of the story : Do not expect all of your friend will help. Realised that we are only the college-class-homework-assignment group members. HAHA.

Now the scratch on friendship is getting worse. How long we will stay as one? -_-
For me, the thing is should not be a BIG ISSUE. Still, why i am so concern about THAT?! Okay. Stop. This issue happen few months ago, YOU SHOULD LET GO. Why you so weird? Starting, alright, I respect your choice; later, this is not okay, you selfish D*ck!!

I am the combination of a arrow and a shield.