Hmm.. Just read my buddy's blog and decided to draw on mine as well.
She just turned into 19 few days ago. Haha. From the day she started to blog I been reading all of the notes she posted. Slowly realised that, she is turning more mature and had gone through tough times. Glad that she is still the optimum girl that I used to know :) But... Some of her part is still the same. Haha.
She blogged almost everything as in, why she will feel happy out of sudden, why she will feel sad, what she wanted to achieve and what changes her perspective on things. And, compare to what I blogged, I am only writing negative stuff. :( Because I am very tired of being happy for the whole day in front of people? Or this is the real me, always being negative. When people around got turned down by obstacles, I will always be the one that cheer them up. However, I can not cheer up myself, I think is because not convincing enough? Is not like I do not want to share out the problem to people around me, is just that I fear I might be crying when I am telling out. :(
Today, I tried to tell Wei Nie that I am the kind of person that will not have long lasting friendship because when our surrounding factors changed (Eg. Classes) I will have no topic to talk with my previous best friend. Even we are very close to each other during this year. Hehe. I nearly cry out.
Then, when she tell me back how she can still able to manage her friendship with her friends, I feel very envy of them, to be honest. I am always the leader in the friendship group cause as always I am the one that ''hunting'' for friends at first. However, I do not have the ability to take the role of managing friendship. Maybe, I am born to be the ''hunter'' but not the manager :)
Very often, I am very afraid of myself, for being so inability in managing friendship. How will I survive in the society if I do not have friends that I trusted and is fixed around me? I do not know. Hoping to have changes in the future or relying on how Wei Nie will save me from there.
Wei Nie, at first I really do not like her, because she is too annoying and noisy sometimes. Then, from time to time, I become very adore of her talent in talking ( or to be more specific, kept on repeating what she telling to others ) Haha. You see, my little group have 6 persons,when we found out something interesting but some of them are not around she will kept on repeating diligently to others but her eyes were on mine like I am the one that doesn't know about it. Haha. Quite annoying for the beginning.
However, Haha, kinda interesting when she was doing that, I can participate by giving different facial expression at there, like for the first time she tell the joke to 2 of the members, I will Laugh-Out-Loud. Then, for the persons afterwards, I will not laugh but will act serious when she is trying to share the joke to others and this sometimes will add up the humour. Haha. Seriously!
Another thing that I do not like about her is always being ignore by her when I am trying to talk my opinion :( Things changed, after I had told her that I always got ignored by her, now turn into when I or any one of us wanna talk but we sounded at the same time, SOMETIMES, she will let us talk then only she take her turn. Haha. Still this situation is quite rare, Haha. Allowing us to talk before she finished her's. Never mind, we had already immune to that already especially myself. :D
I kinda like this girl as a friend, a very annoying, childish but at the same time mature when dealing with serious things, very yong shui. Hahaha. She will not have chance to read about this~
Leason : Annoying level upgraded, Hoping of changes.
Regards,
Leng
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